Wow, guys...
I'm really almost there xD I'm thinking if I keep all the deadlines that I'll be done recording the songs around the 23rd or the following week on the 30th (if I add a 13th song to the group)
After that will be the whirlwind of mastering, CD replication services, and hasty website building.
Dunno how long that will take, but I'm going to make sure it doesn't take too long! O.o After all, the hard part will be over ^0^
Mastering means I take my tracks to a pro sound engineer and have him make everything the same volume and create the 'master' which is the CD that all the replications will be made from.
The replication service will make the discs, print all the booklets and covers, and wrap everything in shiny celophane xD
I'm worried that too many people won't want the physical album in favor of downloads, but I'm putting a lot of love into the booklet's art so I hope some of you will try to get the actual thing ^0^;; pleeease?
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A FEW THINGS~
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1) there will be 13 songs on the album.
2) I will be releasing my performer/stage name along with the CD ^_^
I won't be using my real name or katethegreat19.
3) I have no plans currently to sell the album on itunes, because along with CD baby (the company that gets me on itunes) they will take 60 percent of my earnings. O.o So I'll be selling it on my website so that I can keep more of my income >_>
4) The album only will contain songs I've written and composed the melody for, so no covers and nothing you've ever heard before ^_^ (er...except for the cover of Scarborough Fair, but that's the only one and that's hundreds of years old so it's public domain ^_^ lol)
5) After it's release I will go back to doing the game and anime covers again ^0^
I miss them!
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*hugs* and I hope to have something to show you guys really soon!!
~Kate <3
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
OH NO!!! >w<
OMG >w<
Well, this was a real upsetting surprise....
I have heard from several sources that youtube is now removing cover songs from it's site!!! Many have already been taken down (even with disclaimers)....and...well....as making cover songs is my main 'job' on youtube, this worries me quite bit! O.O If they thought I was a big enough offender, I could even have my account deleted! And there's no appeal system as there is no way to actually contact youtube.
But even the removal of one video/cover is terrible...I don't get subscribers everyday just from random searches, I get them because my videos are spread out on thousands of accounts as favorites, featured videos, etc. and that's why people see them...so if I lose a video, it's like losing a very long branch that took a very long time to grow....T-T
I'm stumped...I thought that making covers was perfectly legal as long as I was making no money that that it was all my own performances...but maybe that's breaking a law that I didn't know about. I can see the record company's point of view in this...they lose money if someone makes a cover song that gets more attention than their actual product. It's a valid worry of the record company, and a valid worry of the whole music biz, as their stock has already dropped considerably in the last 10 years due to readily available CD burners, and nowadays mp3 'sharing' ^w^ As I'm about to (try to) start a career as a recording artist, these very things will soon become valid worries of my own.
But....I believe going after people that make non-profit covers....is attacking the wrong people. However, since this may affect me pretty soon, I have to prepare!
I'll be making a full list of my contacts this week, leaving out no one, and if something bad does happen, I'll be contacting everyone on that list from a new account! T-T
Just a heads up from me...just in case!
*hugs tightly anyone that reads this*
~katethegreat19 ^w^
Well, this was a real upsetting surprise....
I have heard from several sources that youtube is now removing cover songs from it's site!!! Many have already been taken down (even with disclaimers)....and...well....as making cover songs is my main 'job' on youtube, this worries me quite bit! O.O If they thought I was a big enough offender, I could even have my account deleted! And there's no appeal system as there is no way to actually contact youtube.
But even the removal of one video/cover is terrible...I don't get subscribers everyday just from random searches, I get them because my videos are spread out on thousands of accounts as favorites, featured videos, etc. and that's why people see them...so if I lose a video, it's like losing a very long branch that took a very long time to grow....T-T
I'm stumped...I thought that making covers was perfectly legal as long as I was making no money that that it was all my own performances...but maybe that's breaking a law that I didn't know about. I can see the record company's point of view in this...they lose money if someone makes a cover song that gets more attention than their actual product. It's a valid worry of the record company, and a valid worry of the whole music biz, as their stock has already dropped considerably in the last 10 years due to readily available CD burners, and nowadays mp3 'sharing' ^w^ As I'm about to (try to) start a career as a recording artist, these very things will soon become valid worries of my own.
But....I believe going after people that make non-profit covers....is attacking the wrong people. However, since this may affect me pretty soon, I have to prepare!
I'll be making a full list of my contacts this week, leaving out no one, and if something bad does happen, I'll be contacting everyone on that list from a new account! T-T
Just a heads up from me...just in case!
*hugs tightly anyone that reads this*
~katethegreat19 ^w^
Monday, February 2, 2009
foam enables sooner album release!!! O.o plus other stuff ^_^
LOL it's true!!
Now that the room is soundproof, I can now record during the day and the night. Currently I am recording up to 6 hours a day! ^0^ Two album songs are now nearing completion after only a week. It's truly amazing!!! I feel very free. When I am done with the album and back to covers for a while, imagine how many I'll be releasing? ^0^ I'm very excited!!
The only problem with the new studio is that the air gets gross and stuffy very fast >w<
I have to walk out of there every 30 minutes or I'd suffocate for sure...or suffer brain damage at least! ^w^
I've been looking harshly at the songs on this album. I wrote all of them almost 2-4 years ago. I've written many songs and sets of lyrics since then, and my lyric writing has definitely improved. I'm worried that since many people are used to my youtube work, they won't like the lyrics of these older original songs. They were written by a younger me that hadn't really mastered her craft yet. The melodies however are some of my best work. I'm really excited to release them for no other reason than that.
Also, I want to release a Celtic/Renaissance album later this year as well. I spent much of my teenage years playing in a professional Celtic/Renaissance band, and I have a deep love of the
music!!!! ^0^ So that should be amazingly fun to do!
Okies...nothing too deep to say in this blog, just some updates!!! ^_^
talk to you all soon!!
~katethegreat19 ^0^
Now that the room is soundproof, I can now record during the day and the night. Currently I am recording up to 6 hours a day! ^0^ Two album songs are now nearing completion after only a week. It's truly amazing!!! I feel very free. When I am done with the album and back to covers for a while, imagine how many I'll be releasing? ^0^ I'm very excited!!
The only problem with the new studio is that the air gets gross and stuffy very fast >w<
I have to walk out of there every 30 minutes or I'd suffocate for sure...or suffer brain damage at least! ^w^
I've been looking harshly at the songs on this album. I wrote all of them almost 2-4 years ago. I've written many songs and sets of lyrics since then, and my lyric writing has definitely improved. I'm worried that since many people are used to my youtube work, they won't like the lyrics of these older original songs. They were written by a younger me that hadn't really mastered her craft yet. The melodies however are some of my best work. I'm really excited to release them for no other reason than that.
Also, I want to release a Celtic/Renaissance album later this year as well. I spent much of my teenage years playing in a professional Celtic/Renaissance band, and I have a deep love of the
music!!!! ^0^ So that should be amazingly fun to do!
Okies...nothing too deep to say in this blog, just some updates!!! ^_^
talk to you all soon!!
~katethegreat19 ^0^
Friday, January 2, 2009
Analysis of my lyrics for Aerith's Theme (and my views on the shipping wars)
Wow....Of all my covers, Aerith's Theme has been the most hotly discussed on youtube. Not because of the arrangement or the singing, but because of the lyrics, specifically the "pairing" in the lyrics of Cloud and Aerith. First I'll give an analysis of my lyrics for the song, and then some thoughts and reflections I have about the 'shipping wars' that have found their way to my little account ^w^;
~Aerith's Theme~ original english lyrics copyrighted 2008 by Kate Covington~
Far below the city's glow
Lie the flowers blooming in the shadows
They comfort me, saving me
From all I see
~okay, here of course I'm talking about where Aerith is in the beginning of FFVII. In the slums, tending to her flowers. The flowers are something colorful and beautiful, and unexpected sight in such an otherwise dreary and poverty-stricken place. When Aerith (or anyone) gazes upon the flowers, it becomes easier to deal with the sorrow everyday life must bring in the undercity of Midgar. I also wanted to hint that Aerith is like the flowers, and that her beautiful spirit probably brings joy to the people around her.
Then you came with eyes of pain
Haunting blue and gentle
Like a spring rain
Silently beckoning
For a love to cease your inner tears
~Here I introduce Cloud. For many, the conflict in the lyrics begins here, as I am talking about Cloud, not Zack. In a nutshell, I put Cloud in these lyrics because he really did come into the story at this point, and I am attempting to follow the events of the original FFVII in the story of these lyrics. When Cloud enters the scene, Aerith is basically swept away from her life in Midgar, and leaves with the party never to return. I always felt like Aerith, compassionate as she was, must have sensed the sorrow and turmoil within Cloud. And whether or not she had romantic feelings for him ever, I believe she cared for him, as she cared for everyone in the party.
I belong here with you
Though the earth cries inside me
I will fly
High into the storm
Far from the light
I will be strong
~ She wants to remain with everyone, but because she loves them so much, she bravely enters the City of Ancients alone to summon Holy. I reference her awakening Cetra powers here. The faint but persistent voice of the planet that led her onward.
Because they need you
Because I love you
You close your eyes now
I will be gone
But my love for you will go on
~inspired by the dream Cloud had of Aerith in the game. She comes to him in a dream and tries to explain to him what she must do and why. I feel like this verse sums up what she said to Cloud in that dream.
Darkest skies,
hollow eyes
But the stars burn brighter Than you realize
It may be
destiny
That sheds our tears
~This is after Aerith's death. If her spirit could find words I feel this is what she'd say. Even in the midst of darkness and sorrow there is light. Even though Aerith is no longer alive, she succeeded in summoning Holy so there is still hope! And all was fate, destiny, meant to be.
You must leave me behind
Though the night howls inside you
You must fly
High into the storm
Far from the light
You must be strong
~When Cloud lowered Aerith's body into the water, it is with heavy hearts that the party strode foward to face their own destiny. I think everyone felt Aerith's supportive presence even from the lifestream.
Because they need you
Because I love you
You close your eyes now
And I will be gone
But my love for you will go on
~ After Cloud uses Omnislash (^0^) to defeat Sephiroth (and it's unclear whether Cloud is defeating the Jenova legacy within himself, or actually confronting Sephiroth in the lifestream somehow) Aerith appears before Cloud to lead him out of whatever dark place he's in. In that last look they shared what thoughts must Aerith have shared? I leave the song with it's last chorus.
~The Shipping War Attacks On My Lyrics~
Well, although many would disagree with me, I have not actively tried to portray a CloudxAerith romance in these lyrics. I tried to keep Aerith just as she appeared to me when I first played FFVII. Pure....and a bit ambiguous. She gives away nothing in these lyrics. And yet she gives away everything. She was a loving person, which is why the lyrics focus on love; the driving force behind many of her actions. But not particularly a romantic love or for any one person in particular. A love for everyone. For Cloud, for Tifa, for Marlene, for everyone.
The video I made for the song shows only Cloud and Aerith. This confuses people unfortunately. I didn't mean it to show a romance. I meant it to show the powerful effect that Aerith had on Cloud (which reflects the effect she had on everyone). So while the song is from Aerith's point of view, the video is from Clouds point of view. ^_^
link to the video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1-as6Kbcj4c&feature=channel_page
~katethegreat19 ^0^
~Aerith's Theme~ original english lyrics copyrighted 2008 by Kate Covington~
Far below the city's glow
Lie the flowers blooming in the shadows
They comfort me, saving me
From all I see
~okay, here of course I'm talking about where Aerith is in the beginning of FFVII. In the slums, tending to her flowers. The flowers are something colorful and beautiful, and unexpected sight in such an otherwise dreary and poverty-stricken place. When Aerith (or anyone) gazes upon the flowers, it becomes easier to deal with the sorrow everyday life must bring in the undercity of Midgar. I also wanted to hint that Aerith is like the flowers, and that her beautiful spirit probably brings joy to the people around her.
Then you came with eyes of pain
Haunting blue and gentle
Like a spring rain
Silently beckoning
For a love to cease your inner tears
~Here I introduce Cloud. For many, the conflict in the lyrics begins here, as I am talking about Cloud, not Zack. In a nutshell, I put Cloud in these lyrics because he really did come into the story at this point, and I am attempting to follow the events of the original FFVII in the story of these lyrics. When Cloud enters the scene, Aerith is basically swept away from her life in Midgar, and leaves with the party never to return. I always felt like Aerith, compassionate as she was, must have sensed the sorrow and turmoil within Cloud. And whether or not she had romantic feelings for him ever, I believe she cared for him, as she cared for everyone in the party.
I belong here with you
Though the earth cries inside me
I will fly
High into the storm
Far from the light
I will be strong
~ She wants to remain with everyone, but because she loves them so much, she bravely enters the City of Ancients alone to summon Holy. I reference her awakening Cetra powers here. The faint but persistent voice of the planet that led her onward.
Because they need you
Because I love you
You close your eyes now
I will be gone
But my love for you will go on
~inspired by the dream Cloud had of Aerith in the game. She comes to him in a dream and tries to explain to him what she must do and why. I feel like this verse sums up what she said to Cloud in that dream.
Darkest skies,
hollow eyes
But the stars burn brighter Than you realize
It may be
destiny
That sheds our tears
~This is after Aerith's death. If her spirit could find words I feel this is what she'd say. Even in the midst of darkness and sorrow there is light. Even though Aerith is no longer alive, she succeeded in summoning Holy so there is still hope! And all was fate, destiny, meant to be.
You must leave me behind
Though the night howls inside you
You must fly
High into the storm
Far from the light
You must be strong
~When Cloud lowered Aerith's body into the water, it is with heavy hearts that the party strode foward to face their own destiny. I think everyone felt Aerith's supportive presence even from the lifestream.
Because they need you
Because I love you
You close your eyes now
And I will be gone
But my love for you will go on
~ After Cloud uses Omnislash (^0^) to defeat Sephiroth (and it's unclear whether Cloud is defeating the Jenova legacy within himself, or actually confronting Sephiroth in the lifestream somehow) Aerith appears before Cloud to lead him out of whatever dark place he's in. In that last look they shared what thoughts must Aerith have shared? I leave the song with it's last chorus.
~The Shipping War Attacks On My Lyrics~
Well, although many would disagree with me, I have not actively tried to portray a CloudxAerith romance in these lyrics. I tried to keep Aerith just as she appeared to me when I first played FFVII. Pure....and a bit ambiguous. She gives away nothing in these lyrics. And yet she gives away everything. She was a loving person, which is why the lyrics focus on love; the driving force behind many of her actions. But not particularly a romantic love or for any one person in particular. A love for everyone. For Cloud, for Tifa, for Marlene, for everyone.
The video I made for the song shows only Cloud and Aerith. This confuses people unfortunately. I didn't mean it to show a romance. I meant it to show the powerful effect that Aerith had on Cloud (which reflects the effect she had on everyone). So while the song is from Aerith's point of view, the video is from Clouds point of view. ^_^
link to the video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1-as6Kbcj4c&feature=channel_page
~katethegreat19 ^0^
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Top Ten Most Beautiful Things I've Seen on Youtube
I've been wanting to do a video like this for ages, but a blog is way better for this sort of thing! ^0^ These Ten Videos have all made extreme impressions on me for reasons sometimes even I can't explain! They're just simply beautiful! (and btw these are not in order...I can't put things this gorgeous in any sort of order ^w^)
I hope you'll like them too! ^0^
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1) Ballad of the Windfish Cover ~ uploaded by ZPDKPGirl
~point of beauty - absolutely ethereal singing along with one gorgeous melody O.O
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2) In My Arms ~ uploaded by YunieTidus20
~point of beauty - The amazing AMV I watched that originally made me want to join youtube.
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3) Fields of Hope ~ uploaded by tinkerchel
~point of beauty - tinkerchel, just another youtube idol? NOT SO! Easily the most beautiful song on youtube sung by perhaps the most beautiful girl on youtube! ^0^
(note, she has made a music video of herself to go with the song, which does not show her singing, but she HAS actually sung this as well as many other songs)
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4) Lineage II Music Video - Kokia "Harmony" ~ uploaded by darkloony
~point of beauty - where do I start? ^0^ Stunning song, Stunning AMV
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5) Skimming Stones ~
~point of beauty - This IS the most beautiful song I have ever heard. The official music video to this makes me cry whenever i see it. Might take two watchings to understand everything.
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6) Toki No Hourousha (with lyrics) ~ uploaded by AlthenaofDarkness
~point of beauty - Outstanding slideshow to the vocal version of FF6's Terra's theme (can a slideshow be outstanding you ask?! OMG YES!!!!)
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7) Emily Jane White - Two shots to the head (Cover)
~uploaded by a littledreamer
~point of beauty - I'll surely lose some subscribers over this amazing little singer, who's honest and 'darkly innocent' way of singing has a way of getting deep inside your soul. A beautiful cover!
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8) Great Warrior - Final Fantasy VII ~ fan vocal version (Red XIII's theme, Cosmo Canyon) ~ uploaded by HollowRiku
~ point of beauty - The ONLY lyricised version of RedXIII's Theme in exsistence. Beautifully executed with haunting vocals and lyrics by the piano-man himself, HollowRiku!!
*bows to HollowRiku*
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9) Dark Waltz ~ uploaded by ToruFinalFantasy
~point of beauty - hands down the best AMV I have ever seen...and all her vids are of similar beauty! A recent winner in my AMV contest ^0^
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10) Hijo de la Luna - Final Fantasy X-2 - VII ~ uploaded by JulietLenne
~ point of beauty - beautiful sad song with an extremely well done AMV showing the story with scenes from Final Fantasy! VERY WELL DONE!! xD
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~katethegreat19 ^0^
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
An analysis of my lyrics for ~Rose of May~
*note* A lot of people have asked me to explain the lyrics of this song and others ^w^ I'd love to do this in the info boxes of my song's postings on youtube, but there is very little room >w<; so I'm posting a detailed analysis of the lyrics here! I hope you enjoy it!
(link to the song on youtube) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bNHtbw4Kyf0
Rose of May~
vs 1)
Her heart underneath
cries quietly
This part of me
I choose not to see
*this is pretty self explanatory, stating the basic fact that Beatrix lives within a shell of herself, not showing her true feelings, pushing them away from herself even, in order to be a better knight.
vs 2)
what lives must I take
for fealty's sake?
How much blood must stain
this warrior's blade?
*she wonders how far her queen will go before her wishes are satisfied, she wants to trust her queen, she wants to believe that her actions and orders will only bring about good, but she begins to doubt....
~Chorus 1)
War leaves its trail in moonlight so pale
*Here I've used a basic and ancient metaphor for femininity. (the moon) I'm trying to convey that war leaves its mark not only on the land and on its people, but also on the knight herself, slowly taking away her innocence and youth as she witnesses and takes part in warfare.
It's shadows they flow, in rivers in rivers
* the resulting blood flows in rivers, it's resulting pain, heartache, and loss flow also
So put on my mask, I'll go where they ask
*She puts on her 'mask' which she hides her true feelings (she might have been trained to think of them as weakness) and goes where her duty to her queen dictates.
So I might once again see the roses of May
*She wants to believe these duties will bring about a time of peace for her kingdom, and maybe that peace will forgive her actions and make everything she did okay. I use roses of may as a metaphor for innocence, peace, and happiness.
Staining my hands and stinging my eyes, the blood on my hands won't wash away, wash away
*No matter how she frames her mind, she feels great guilt and remorse, when she realizes that she has participated in such a great misdeed. I imagine she felt this way especially after the Burmecia and Cleyra massacres which prompts her to apologize to Freya later in the game.
No where to run from what I have done, I'm no longer, no longer a Rose of May
* She realizes that she has not acted in the greater good. Her honor as a knight is forfeit, and she feels her innocence and youth are truly gone.
~Chorus 2)
fate holds the blade before you, mirrored in maiden's eyes
far from myself I fly into the perilous skies
*fealty dictates that her will is not her own. It is easy to say her actions are in the hands of fate.
all of this mirrored in the 'eyes' of Beatrix's inner self, which I imagine stays soft and empathic like it was before she became a soldier. Also trying to convey a picture of Beatrix's first years as a soldier.
and they said follow the blade before before you
fear fall and courage rise
leave all your tears behind you
far from where innocence lies
*here trying to convey a picture of Beatrix's first years as a soldier, and the hardening of spirit that her mentors tried to implement on her. I imagine she did not harden her spirit, but she did develop her 'mask'
vs 3)
Cage of the kings
No need for wings
so turn them to stone
from roses to bone
*cage of the kings, here meaning fealty. This verse has kind of a resigned quality. Maybe these realizations turned her into the fearsome character that we meet in the game for the first time.
Basically, since she has no freedom of emotion or will as a knight, she says, I'll kill that part of myself, I'll turn that part of myself to stone since it is not needed, it is only a hindrance.
vs 4)
When you look at me
What do you see?
this costume I weave
disfiguring me.
*and it is an effective 'costume'. We are convinced the Beatrix is evil for most of the beginning of the game.
~Chorus 2)
Storm clouds are creeping closer
Danger is drawing near
why am I not protecting all I hold dear?
This part highlights that very important part of the game where Beatrix turns her back to her Queen and starts protecting Princess Garnet instead. At the height of losing everything, Beatrix lets her true self direct her actions. Princess Garnet is now the "Alexandria" she needs to protect. She is redeemed by this!
and you said 'break free from all that holds you
kings hand and maiden's tear
run now into my arms
together we'll conquer our fears'
*It is not clear whether the phrase between the apostrophes is Steiner's words or Beatrix's inner self. I'd like you to make up your own mind. It could be either ^_^
Vs 5)
Led here by fate
no longer afraid
so here now I lay
my roses of May
*at the end of the game. I believe Beatrix has found her honor, and come to peace with her inner self, restoring Alexandria and playing her part in the peace of the world. She accepts the blood that stains her hands will never go away, she lays her lost innocence to rest, and she begins her knighthood again, with more experienced eyes, the mask removed....
~katethegreat19 ^0^
(link to the song on youtube) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bNHtbw4Kyf0
Rose of May~
vs 1)
Her heart underneath
cries quietly
This part of me
I choose not to see
*this is pretty self explanatory, stating the basic fact that Beatrix lives within a shell of herself, not showing her true feelings, pushing them away from herself even, in order to be a better knight.
vs 2)
what lives must I take
for fealty's sake?
How much blood must stain
this warrior's blade?
*she wonders how far her queen will go before her wishes are satisfied, she wants to trust her queen, she wants to believe that her actions and orders will only bring about good, but she begins to doubt....
~Chorus 1)
War leaves its trail in moonlight so pale
*Here I've used a basic and ancient metaphor for femininity. (the moon) I'm trying to convey that war leaves its mark not only on the land and on its people, but also on the knight herself, slowly taking away her innocence and youth as she witnesses and takes part in warfare.
It's shadows they flow, in rivers in rivers
* the resulting blood flows in rivers, it's resulting pain, heartache, and loss flow also
So put on my mask, I'll go where they ask
*She puts on her 'mask' which she hides her true feelings (she might have been trained to think of them as weakness) and goes where her duty to her queen dictates.
So I might once again see the roses of May
*She wants to believe these duties will bring about a time of peace for her kingdom, and maybe that peace will forgive her actions and make everything she did okay. I use roses of may as a metaphor for innocence, peace, and happiness.
Staining my hands and stinging my eyes, the blood on my hands won't wash away, wash away
*No matter how she frames her mind, she feels great guilt and remorse, when she realizes that she has participated in such a great misdeed. I imagine she felt this way especially after the Burmecia and Cleyra massacres which prompts her to apologize to Freya later in the game.
No where to run from what I have done, I'm no longer, no longer a Rose of May
* She realizes that she has not acted in the greater good. Her honor as a knight is forfeit, and she feels her innocence and youth are truly gone.
~Chorus 2)
fate holds the blade before you, mirrored in maiden's eyes
far from myself I fly into the perilous skies
*fealty dictates that her will is not her own. It is easy to say her actions are in the hands of fate.
all of this mirrored in the 'eyes' of Beatrix's inner self, which I imagine stays soft and empathic like it was before she became a soldier. Also trying to convey a picture of Beatrix's first years as a soldier.
and they said follow the blade before before you
fear fall and courage rise
leave all your tears behind you
far from where innocence lies
*here trying to convey a picture of Beatrix's first years as a soldier, and the hardening of spirit that her mentors tried to implement on her. I imagine she did not harden her spirit, but she did develop her 'mask'
vs 3)
Cage of the kings
No need for wings
so turn them to stone
from roses to bone
*cage of the kings, here meaning fealty. This verse has kind of a resigned quality. Maybe these realizations turned her into the fearsome character that we meet in the game for the first time.
Basically, since she has no freedom of emotion or will as a knight, she says, I'll kill that part of myself, I'll turn that part of myself to stone since it is not needed, it is only a hindrance.
vs 4)
When you look at me
What do you see?
this costume I weave
disfiguring me.
*and it is an effective 'costume'. We are convinced the Beatrix is evil for most of the beginning of the game.
~Chorus 2)
Storm clouds are creeping closer
Danger is drawing near
why am I not protecting all I hold dear?
This part highlights that very important part of the game where Beatrix turns her back to her Queen and starts protecting Princess Garnet instead. At the height of losing everything, Beatrix lets her true self direct her actions. Princess Garnet is now the "Alexandria" she needs to protect. She is redeemed by this!
and you said 'break free from all that holds you
kings hand and maiden's tear
run now into my arms
together we'll conquer our fears'
*It is not clear whether the phrase between the apostrophes is Steiner's words or Beatrix's inner self. I'd like you to make up your own mind. It could be either ^_^
Vs 5)
Led here by fate
no longer afraid
so here now I lay
my roses of May
*at the end of the game. I believe Beatrix has found her honor, and come to peace with her inner self, restoring Alexandria and playing her part in the peace of the world. She accepts the blood that stains her hands will never go away, she lays her lost innocence to rest, and she begins her knighthood again, with more experienced eyes, the mask removed....
~katethegreat19 ^0^
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